in my field

have you ever felt alone in a crowd? no matter how many people are around you... you just don't feel like anyone's really there...

i dunno. i just feel like that right now. it just feels like everyones a room away. even when i lean on them. i'm sure it's just stress again. this week is the *big week* for everything. all the deadlines are this week. and there's some pretty extreme mess in the group.

"paper flowers"

i want to find that place... where i can escape to. i just lose myself in computer games. anything that helps me forget for a while. i dunno. i expected to feel like this. like i've got a mile wide exclusion zone around me. but just because that's what i was expecting doesn't make it any easier to bear.

If I was at home I'd just crawl into bed and sleep. but i'm in a shitty useless business lesson which Steve hasn't even turned up to yet. and i've got work tonight. and a shit load of forms for rolls royce to fill in. and i just want to sleep

steve's here. gotta go.