Stupid People, Sad Poems, Super Patches

Heylo Blog. Been an... up'n'down day today. Let's start chronogically.

Been feeling pretty bad today. Very tired, miserable and just a little introverted. So much so that I fell asleep at Lunch time (Thank you Sophie, you're too damn sweet sometimes) and then again in the common room during 4th.

During 4th, I wanted to be alone, so I went down to the Brook. The brook runs just outside school and I used to play there when I was in year 8. I felt terrible. So much so I wrote this.

Let me sleep
And never wake
All this life
Is more than I can take

Let me fall
From this grace
I don't belong
In this place

I try to help
But it's all too much
I love you so
But I've fallen out of touch

Let me sleep
Lie in the dark
Let me rest
My weary heart


Yeah. I was feeling very negative. But I think this little verse sums it up:

The mask is a lie
But it's better than what I'm trying to hide

So I went back to the common room and... well, I fell asleep. Apparently Pete Smith poked me but I don't remember anything.

So that was 4th. Wonderful. Afternoon break comes round and I meet up with the gang. I sit next to Sophie and she's being very supportive. I rest my head on her shoulders for a few moments.

Okay. Now I want you to picture this. Myself, leaning against a girl who, despite her constant denial of it, is muchly pretty. Not only this but every person around me is also a girl. So I'm one guy in a crowd of girls. When some lad turns up and starts showing off this barbed-wire. Fuck knows where he got it from, I was too tired to care. Remember that picture? The guy comes up to me and goes "Hey gayboy. Want to buy this barbed wire?"

Yeah.

Seriously, I think stupid people should be shot on sight. And then the shooter should be rewarded. Gah! WTF? I'm leaning against a girl for the gods sake! Stupid people make me laugh though. I just told Sophie how he really thinks. "Just because he wants me to suck his dick doesn't mean I'm gay."

Let's face it, the ones who spend most of their lives calling me, bob and all my other guy friends homosexual are the ones who spend their lives around other men. A prime example, Ash Noble. He spends his whole time falsely assuming my sexual orientation, while I'm out with the girls I might add, and then spends the best part of 3 hours crammed into a car with 5 other hot, sweaty lads.

Yeah. And I'm the gay one, apparently. Hell, even if I was he'd have no chance with me. I'm *way* too good for that trailer trash ^_^


Bit of a tangent there. Whoops. Sorry, but it's been playing on my mind for a while so I thought I'd put it here.

Anyway, the final item. I just put my LP patch onto my coat. It looks Awesome! And I didn't botch the stitching or anything. I'm well chuffed ^_^ I'll be taking it for it's big trials tomorrow down at Notts. Tomorrows gonna be fun. Holly's joining us and she's bringing Phillip. He's coming up to 19, so I won't be the eldest (and therefore the one who has to be responsible) anymore. ^_^

Will let you know how it goes.

And thanks again Miss Sophie. You were really there for me today. *hugs to Sophie*