Explanations Of Silence

i guess i owe my readers a little explanation:

I've not been writing here because, frankly, I've not felt up to it. An awful lot has happened over the last week or so that I've just been drained and crap.

My sad moods are picking up in frequency and intensity. The last 3 days I've felt about a step away from breaking down into tears. I don't think it's ever been this prolonged. A lot of crap is happening in my friendship group and I guess that isn't really helping. But friends stick by each other and dammit that's what i'm gonna do.

I now have 4 main hassles in my life. My new boots are still adjusting to my feet and the back of my left foot has been rubbed to such a point where I've got quite the limp. I need to buy some good socks. I reckon that'll sort the problem out.

My back is playing up (again). I keep getting sharp, sudden stabbing pains in my lower back. Sometimes it hurts in my right leg to. The doctor says I need to go to physio. I need to give them a call sometime soonish.

My other (previously good) eye now has conjunctivtus too. _Joy_. It's like having sand in your eye. I've got some ointment for it. Gonna start taking it tomorrow.

And I told my doc about how I've been feeling. He reckons it's stress, not depression, so that's good news. It means that once I get out of this shithole of a school I should feel better. I hope so. I'm hoping my plan to have 2 months totally to myself will help matters. He didn't say it but he implied that if I'm still feeling bad once I've started working at Rolls Royce I should see him again.

Couple all that with the fact I've been so tired these last few days and I hope that explains the lack of posting.

Now I'm gonna get some tea. I'm famished.